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Wendy Pratt

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Author, poet and editor Wendy Pratt lives and works on the North Yorkshire coast. She's written several volumes of poetry – her most recent collection being Blackbird Singing at Dusk – and her nature/landscape memoir, The Ghost Lake, was described by The Observer as ‘remarkable’. Wendy is also the founder and editor-in-chief of Spelt Magazine, which celebrates and validates the rural experience through poetry, creative non-fiction and poetry film.

the poems

Nan Hardwicke
Turns into a Hare

In memory of M

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            I will tell you how it was. I slipped

            into the hare like a nude foot 

            into a glorious slipper. Pushing her bones

            to one side to make room for my shape

            so I could settle myself like a child within her.

            In the dark I groped for her freedom, gently teasing

            it apart to web across my palm.

            Here is where the separation ends:

            I tensed her legs with my arms, pushed my rhythm

            down the stepping-stones of spine. An odd feeling this,

            to hold another’s soul in the mouth like an egg;

            the aching jaw around her delicate self. Her mind

            was simple, full of open space and weather.

            I warmed myself on her frantic pulse and felt the draw

            of gorse and grass, the distant slate line

            at the edge of the moor. The air span diamonds

            out of sea fret to catch across my tawny coat

            as I began to fold the earth beneath my feet

            and fly across the heath, the heather.

Sometimes I Pretend
I am a Dog

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                        When we are alone together

                        I allow myself to become pack.


                        We stop and I sit

                        and you move about the place


                        in silence. Sometimes we both

                        lie down with our sides against 


                        the parched earth and let our eyes close.

                        When people are near, I act


                        as if I am also a person. Mostly

                        it is just us and the Wolds or 


                        the chalk farm roads and wind turbines

                        and rocks and cloud shadows,


                        the fast pace of the sun over great distances.

                        You do not look at the view as I do


                        but you understand how to move within it.

                        When I was a child, I hid under the teacher’s desk


                        and would speak only in dog. I did not pretend

                        to be a dog. I was a dog. I willed myself to canine.


                        The family dog was my brother. I ate from his bowl,

                        slept in his bed. I long to be that animal again.


                        Sometimes I test myself to see how dog

                        I still am. I run my tongue along my canines


                        and feel for the movement of my ears.

                        I slouch my back, and pull my knees up


                        let my spine fall between my shoulder blades.

                        Sometimes I climb a fallen tree or a boulder


                        like that and it pleases me, and it pleases you

                        to see me down at your level. This is joy.


                        In these moments I feel as the earth must feel, 

                        and I feel as the glacial till must feel and 


                        what it might be to exist only in sensation.

Eleven

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                        I want you to know

                        that we are happy. 


                        I want you to know that we laugh. 

                        That some days I think I have forgotten

                        what you look like. 


                        That we sit on the patio

                        drinking wine and sometimes

                        we don’t think of you at all. 


                        That I can’t imagine you

                        at the age you would be now.


                        I want you to know 

                        that I keep your clothes

                        near our bed, 

                        where I can see them.


                        That your photo is faded

                        and everyone in it looks dated,

                        except you.


                        I want you to know that sometimes

                        I live in the days of your death.

                        That sometimes I can smell

                        the bereavement suite, sometimes 

                        the sound of the heart monitor wakes me

                        and the sound of the fan whirring

                        and the smell of toast on the ward 

                        and the squeak of trolleys wheeling drugs 

                        in the corridor and you in the Moses basket 

                        is all there is. 


                        I want you to know that on those days

                        it is difficult to let you go again. 


                        I want you to know

                        that today isn’t one of those days,


                        I want you to know that today 

                        I carry you up to the cemetery like

                        a goldfinch on my shoulder

                        and that you bob away in the air

                        and then back again, and that 

                        it makes me happy

                        to imagine us this way.

Publishing credits

Nan Hardwicke Turns into a Hare:

  Nan Hardwicke Turns into a Hare (Prole Books)

Sometimes I Pretend I am a Dog / Eleven:

  Blackbird Singing at Dusk (Nine Arches Press)

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